Vibrating Thresholds

Vibrating Thresholds

I know, weird.  But the idea of vibrating thresholds is once again the best way to describe this time. It’s my new way of thinking about life change that we can sense but can’t see to the other side.  Sometimes it’s merely waiting. But often it’s continuing to heed the insistences on our heart. Walking towards the dream. Steve’s and my world is often filled with the NEXT BIG IDEA. It’s how we roll around here. Brainstorming is in our blood and we travel great tangental rabbit trails of possibilities for businesses, movies, gazebos, retreats, adventures, books, … (wait, gazebos? ya, he wants one). But we’ve also lived long enough (and surrendered repeatedly) and reflected back enough to know the hand of God is exceedingly more thrilling as a way...

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Committed Dreamers

Maybe we should be committed.  (hmmm… does it negate the “committed” part if we say “maybe”?)  Scratch that; let’s keep going. Saturday: Today we have a two-hour drive to Riley’s weekend volleyball tournament, and we accept the opportunity to ponder yet another transformational life-moment.  This week we made some key decisions. We settle into the truth that both Steve and I signed up for a new level of accountability and growth; both of us entering into separate programs conducted by the spectacular Dr. John Townsend.  The challenge (for me, at least) feels like college, and the excitement is even more so.  What am I thinking?? We do know that what God has directed and bestowed upon us represents what He believes we can do. The vision and...

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Giving Up Lent (not)

I’ve traveled a somewhat circuitous pathway from the religious rules of my childhood, to a new understanding of the full work of Jesus-God (which is emphatically law-averse for many good reasons), to a new independent place where I know that God sees through all spiritual camouflage.  It is our hearts He wants – because only then can He free us from this-world craziness.  So now that I’m settled on the idea that Lent isn’t some diabolical stronghold but rather a [potentially] strengthening spiritual discipline, I’m ready to make some commitments (and not a moment too soon!) This is where Steve and I come to the middle of two ends of our faith upbringing.  To wit: Devotion to God isn’t a short-term task we complete after a season, and then...

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Breathing In… and Breathing Out

Today I commit to getting it all pulled together.  There are thousands of pages  written down.  Decades of journals, outlines, individual thoughts and attempts to write the book.  Or is it a screenplay?  Yes, write that.  It’ll be funny and captivating and compelling and make people cry. No, it’s fiction.  Write that. There are three books; here are the synopses.  Characters who live the life and convey the thoughts, but in a story that gets shared as summer reading and book clubs. Wise sister said: “Dear, if it’s truth, it will be yours and you will be able to keep growing with it.” She’s right, of course. Let’s get it down.  I know that if God wants it, it will work.  It must be truth. As I go back over the journals of those crazy...

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The [Way] Back Story

The [Way] Back Story

A train from Detroit to Chicago in 1955.  A transatlantic passenger ship from Liverpool to Ellis Island in the same year. Each of these simple, everyday passages carried a young, scared teenager who would soon come together to establish life’s direction for another generation of people. Today, I can touch the words that were entered on the ship’s log as Mom began her life-changing journey across the pond.  Her strong and glamorous Aunt Mary in Chicago sent for the 19-year old Helen to experience a better life in America, and escape the doldrums of England. Scene 2: My father was running away from his father.  Dad’s older sister and her husband helped young Don escape the oppression he could no longer tolerate from the man we only know through sketchy...

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