Mom has moved the pillow to the center of the bed: submission to the truth.
He is with Jesus and her life is changed. How can she be happy that he’s gone? How can we celebrate the joy of heaven when we have such guttural pain in our body? It’s the most ultimate choice that we must work through in our own abilities.
Mom has turned her life over to God’s Plan countless times in 77 years. This will be her highest mountain to climb so far, I imagine. She has taught me to trust, keep going, stand firm and be joyful with our life no matter the challenge. “Turn it over to God,” she said. Never saying it without herself knowing so deeply what that means. I am present for her now, understanding the joy of motherhood solves lots of woes. And understanding the loss she feels inside is hers alone to process. All is love.
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This is the post I wrote a week after we buried Dad last June; our hearts were raw with such frayed sadness.
But today’s is his birthday – the first birthday since he was taken home by his Savior – and we celebrate Dad’s beautiful joy. He Lived Love. Every day.
It’s good to look back and know that we hurt so deeply and we can heal with time, submission and trust. And never forget his legacy lives in each of us.
8 Comments
Ed D'Onofrio
very nice…..dealing with similar situation with Mom….around Mother’s Day….yikes! The goodness carries us through;)
Suzy
Dear Old friend! How wonderful to see you here! Thanks for coming and saying hi. Come back soon!:)
I wish your family peace and calm hearts. It’s so hard…
Love
Suzy!
Karen Trigg
Beautiful!
When we love deeply…we grieve deeply as well…don’t we?
Made me think of my husband and that I may well be without him one day. Something I think of frequently.
Thank you for sharing your loss and your celebration.
I hope you don’t mind my commenting on your blog. You may have wanted this to be more personal for those who know you. I started following after we connected via Twitter.
Blessings!
Love your writing,
HIS
karen
Suzy
Karen,
I’m delighted that you came and commented! I hope you always feel welcome to do so. (and do so often!)
Thank you for your thoughts. We indeed need to live each day spilling out love, don’t we?
I hope you have a great rest of your week. Thank you again for being part of this sharing community!
Best,
suzy
Sue Berk
I know your heart about your dad, Suzy. It’s mine too. July 31, 2001 was his entry day into Heaven. Almost 12 years have passed and it’s like yesterday. SO thankful that the Lord gives us strength to move ahead in life, while allowing us the ability to hold our precious ones close in our hearts, and to remember their rich heritage of memories, from teachings and example, to their personality and the humorous while we had them here with us. Looking forward to joining Dad in the Heavenly Chorus some day…. And loving knowing you, my dear. Thanks for sharing. 🙂 Sue
Suzy
Dearest,
You are a great witness.
It’ll be a crazy chorus, right?? So excited.
Love you!
-s
Elana
Oh Suzy, somehow I missed this, I don’t know how since I enjoy and learn from your beautifully written words…my mom would have/should have turned 73 this past Saturday. I miss her terribly every day but sometimes the anniversary dates hit even harder. Glad you were able to spend quality time recently with your wonderful extended family. Seems to me that your dad would have loved that!!
Suzy
Elana,
Yes, i know you know. It’s a sweet connection we now carry in our hearts, and we look forward to seeing him again! I know your Mom is alive in your heart.
Thanks, friend!
-s